We have a meeting coming up in two weeks and the sub-committee is supposed to meet one week prior to that meeting but I email and email the leader of this organisation, asking whether I can send out an email to suggest a date. He never replies nor does he answer the phone (he would rather not have this meeting – although it is in our terms of reference). Then I get pressure as to why I am so disorganised that I haven’t set up this meeting.

I don’t want to “dump” the leader in it. I am supposed to be supporting him after all — and equally I don’t want to go ahead and try to organise it without getting his permission first. That also seems wrong.

Is it my ego that wants to be seen as being efficient that is pushing me to go ahead and organise meetings without his permission? Is that right? Should I discuss this more directly with him and how difficult I find it? I feel as though I don’t know what is the right thing to do. I don’t like the fact that everyone thinks it is my fault, when I am ready and organised to do it but what I can’t manage is getting the leader to agree to it. I am a good secretary (in terms of being organised) but I am not a good manipulator or bossy person at all….

those who come here are those who are stuck in their lives… not knowing wat to do.. they are atopped by their unwillingness to move without a sure path of success… as well as hooked on to some result which they feel might come if they wait and be patient, rather then move on.. or they may have to decide between one route which is tempting but not necessarily good in long term, vs nontempting and replusive which might be a good thing in long term but not with a surity…

the thing is that what ever we rightly choose will not always bring u happiness…atleast not instantly… and we cant asume everything done that doesnt bring us joy or happiness is a wrong thing… when u dont know wats the right thing to do… often u will be short in beleiving who are the right people to take advsie from…often we find problems which are unique to us… faced by no one not even our teachers… or elders who seem to be just as much at loss as we… and inner peace is hard to experience when we find turmoil outside… and often we feel inside hurt and pain… though we know we are doing the right thing… or somehow have done all we can… and still are unable to be at ease…

all i ahve to say… right thing to do is any thing which doesnt harm anyone intentionally… but to do it… we need to be strong enuf and wise enuf to know wat it is and be able to do it… when we dont know wats the right thing to do…. we are in a place where we are placed with two choices… both of which have its good and bad consequences… and we are scared of the bad consequences… we dont want the bad consequences… and that fear often keeps us from taking any course… the fear… wat if it fails wat if we regret… we always know wats the right thing to do, though we may might be weak in doing it… wat we dont know is to choose among two possible course of actions which both seem doable and both can have negative consequences… to commit to which one… and which one will be better able to handle and deal with and find joy with and which will turn out best…and the worst part is that we can only choose one… and we have to let go the other… along with it the possibility how it wud have been (better or worse) if we had gone for it rather than wat we choose)

peace of mind in this case will only happen.. when we choose one we totally take it like the most beloved and only option… and never doubt it until u reach its destiny… never look back or wonder how it wud have been if we had chosen that and not this…